So the last 2 months have been quite eventful. 2 months ago today I found out I was pregnant again and I couldn't be happier. Just 3 weeks later we found out we were having twins! It was quite a shock, but I was so happy. Excitement and giddiness were the primary emotions for me, though shock and nervousness were close seconds. I wrote down my feelings, just after I found out I was pregnant, but before I found out we were having twins and want to put them here to always remember.
June 26th:
Tonight I found out I am pregnant. I am having a hard time trying to pin down into words what I am feeling. I still can not grasp it. It is a very surreal feeling for me. After months of fertility drugs and close to 2 years of trying and one horribly emotional miscarriage, we are expecting again. I am so thankful for my Heavenly Father and the wonderful blessings he bestows upon me. It still feels so unbelievable, but I am going to put my trust in my Savior and have faith that this pregnancy will go full term. I will have faith that this pregnancy will be healthy for me and that this baby will be born healthy and whole.
My joy is full and my gratitude is over flowing. I can not wait to see more of this baby, to feel it move and to get to know him/her. I feel so grateful for this opportunity and pray that my Father will see it fit to allow this little one to come to us for good.
Just 3 weeks after writing this, we found out there wasn't just one baby, but two. Joe called it. The entire 3 weeks before we found out, he was sure I was having twins. He said he just had a feeling and plus I was showing quite early. When we went in for the first ultra sound we saw two little sacks and two little babies and two little hearts beating. Their heart beats were music to my ears. I didn't cry, but I was smiling ear to ear. I couldn't believe how blessed I was, that the Lord would give me two little angels to watch over at once. I am still a little in shock and still a little nervous, but my joy is so full. We prayed for years for more children, and have had many hard trials along the way. I feel the Lord is rewarding me for my patience and is telling me I will provide. I feel so lucky to be pregnant right now and can't wait to find out what we are having.
This pregnancy so far has been hard. I have been very sick and haven't had much of an appetite. I was sick from day one pretty much and have remained so throughout. I keep hoping that this one will be different than Dallin, as I was sick the full 9 months with him. I think it will be different, at least I hope so.
Dallin still doesn't understand quite yet that there are little babies soon to come to our house. I think as he gets older and this pregnancy progresses that he will be able to grasp the concept eventually. He does know that the ultra sound pictures below are "the babies" and he refers to them as such whenever he gets the chance. I think he will be an awesome older brother, he is so kind and so gentle and such a sweetheart. He loves his mommy and daddy and I know he will love these two little peanuts also.
This ultrasound was taken at 10 weeks and 2 days. I was so worried going into this appointment, but their heartbeats were strong and they eased my heart so much to hear them.
I am now 12.5 weeks pregnant and counting down the days til I get to find out with genders they are:)
First baby
Second Baby
Both babies together:)
