And I'm back

I am going to get caught up, I am going to get caught up....
I just keep telling myself this, let's hope it actually happens.  So much has taken place in the last few months, so many fond memories, so many crazy little things the twins have done, and I am terrified that I haven't written any of it down, and I will forget it.  Just as I sit down to write things out, a baby will cry, or Dallin will DEMAND my attention.  There always seems to be something else I should be doing, but I want so badly to remember all the things that have happened.   I vow to write a blog post everyday, til I am caught up...Let's hope I find the time.   I don't know who even reads this anymore, but I write it for me and for my own records, so let's hope I can keep my word to myself.

Last post was about the twins blessing day.  That feels like so long ago.  They were almost 12 weeks old and they are now just a week shy of 5 months.  They are growing like weeds and winning my heart over each and everyday.  Their smiles can melt my worst worries and cut through any stress I was feeling.  I seriously love these boys so much.  I almost cry just typing these words.  I just feel so so blessed to have them in my life.  I can't believe I got so lucky.  How in the world did the Lord feel so merciful as to give me three little boys to love and cherish.  And cherish them I do.

The last few months have been so crazy, almost a blur at times, but then other times, I can't believe so much as happened.  Joe had major back surgery in May, and since then he hasn't been able to help me do anything with the twins.  He can't even pick up his own children.  I know it hurts him and his heart aches to hold them and play with them, but that time will come.  In the mean time, I have been the sole caretaker, house cleaner, nose wiper, boo-boo fixer, chef extraordinaire, and anything else you can think of.  Joe has been the money maker, thank goodness for that.  It is such a blessing he can still work laying down:)  But as the rest of the lot falls to me I have had some crazy ups and downs.  One day I feel on cloud 9 and then the next I am in tears and sobbing.  The emotions have been a real roller coaster, but you know what?  I am so thankful for all of it.   I really wouldn't change it.  Really.  Crazy I know, but I have come so much closer to my boys, to my husband and to knowing my self from serving and giving so much to them.  You really do love those you serve and I already loved them lots, and lots, so now it's just brimming over.

 My monster hunter

 Look at these faces....couldn't you just die from cuteness overload....

The twins have been amazing. They slept through the night at 9 weeks. They now sleep about 12 hours a night, from 6:30pm till around 6:30 AM.  I was ecstatic that this was happening.  It started right around the time that Joe had surgery.  Coincidence?  I think not.  They twins seriously are amazing babies. They have the cutest smiles, cutest personalities and the best giggles in the world.   They are just so miraculous to me.

Dallin is just growing and becoming so funny.  He makes me laugh so many times a day, I lose count.  He has such a quirky personality.  He loves to shoot monsters, and dresses up in his rain boots, goggles and squirt gun to hunt.  He loves to play in water and often asks me 10 or more times a day to go outside and get in the water.  He loves his brothers and is so soft and tender with them.  He loves to make them laugh and sings to them when they are sad.  My favorite is when he hums the tune to "Going Home" by Liberia.   They stop crying and always watch him with interest in their faces.  He loves his Daddy and gets so excited to do anything with Joe.  He can't do much now, but just hanging out with his Daddy IS his favorite pastime.   Dallin has developed such a gentle heart.  He is quick to kiss my owsies...I am clumsy so there are many.  He his never short on good things to say, like "mommy you are the best mommy in the whole wide world," or "You are beautiful today mommy, so beautiful."  He is such an amazing boy and I love him so very much.

Dallin starts preschool soon and my heart can hardly stand it.  I am going to miss him sooo much, but it will be so good for him to get out of the house and learn to socialize.  He has been stuck at home with a hermit mother and two little babies for way toooo long.  I am excited though, he will get to have some structure and learn to read very soon.  I can't wait to hear him read to me:)

My next update will be about the twins 3rd month of life and Dallin's victory of the the "white throne" or should we say toilet.  He is officially potty trained hooray.  Now off to feed some babies...

Twins Blessing Day May 6th

 The twins were blessed on May 6th, 2012.  They were about 12 weeks old.  It was such an amazing day.  I purchased some cute little white tuxedos to have them blessed in.  Even a small was too big on them, but they were so adorable nonetheless.

 Family Pics

Joe gave them some amazing and very sweet baby blessings.  The biggest thing that stood out to me was that he blessed each of them to be selfless husbands and stalwart members of the church and to live their lives like Christ.  It was a spiritual day for me and so amazing to see my husband bless to more little boys.  I am so grateful to have them in my life.  If you would have told me 3 years ago that I would have 3 kids by today, I would have told you that you were crazy.  With all the infertility issues we were facing, I never could have dreamed up this wonderful outcome.  I am so happy and feel so blessed to have these little miracles in my life.  I get to love them and be their mama forever.  I finally understand how someone could feel like their children are their babies forever. I will always think of my boys as my babies, no matter how big they get, they will always have a big chunk of my heart.

We had a lot of family over for a luncheon afterward.  It was great to see friends and family.  We have sandwiches, chips and fruit for lunch.  I was pretty proud of myself.  I did it all by myself and got it all done on time.   I have learned to multitask even more now that I already did.  You kinda have to with twins:)

 Joe's grandma Patton holding Matthew.

 After the luncheon, we all hoped in the car and drove up the Alpine loop to stop at this beautiful lake.  Joe's brother Ben was able to fly into town as well as Joe's parents, and so all of us were able to go up and just take a nice breather in the fresh air and nice cool breeze.  Utah has such beautiful mountains and scenery, I feel so blessed to be here.

All in all in was a great day with family, friends and my little boys.  I couldn't have imagined it any better.

Dallin turns the big 0-3

 Dallin turned three years old March 5th.  It was awesome.  I tried my darnedest to throw him a good party, and I hope I succeeded.  He was such a good boy through the twins birth and suffered from lack of parental attention.  I think he had a blast.

 "What Mom, another picture....give me a break."

 Cake year 3.

I usually try to do some kind of cool cake.  Year one it was a doggy cake, year 2 it was a lighting McQueen cake and this year it was going to be a buzz light year cake, but I was super stressed and this is what I ended up dong.  It wasn't a life-sized Buzz cake, but it was still pretty awesome.

 Dallin opening his presents.

 I told him to close his eyes before daddy brought his bike down.  I got some pretty cool shots of his reaction.  He is such a cool kid.

 Blowing out his candles and cutting the cake.  Dallin thought the cake look, "so cool", but said, "I can't eat that mom, it isn't tasty."  Whatever Dallin, mommy enjoyed eating it. It was made for him, but you can't make him eat it.  It was fun nonetheless, I think he enjoyed himself....Don't ya think????

Ya, I would say this face says it all....

 Twins at two weeks.  They look so small, but that was only a short while ago.  They were so strong already.  Blake was lifting his head and Matthew was arching his back so high, I thought for sure he was going to roll over at two weeks.  They both slept so well.  At this point, Joe's mom Judy was flying back home and I thought I was going to die.  It felt so overwhelming.  So Joe, being the super man that his is, he started getting up every night to help me out.  He did every nighttime feeding from then on out.  Every single one.  What a stud right?  He was such a help to me.  I was going going going all day long with the twins and Dallin, that I was exhausted at night, and would break down and cry at the thought of getting up in the middle of the night.  Joe was such a trooper and did it for me instead.  We bought these nifty horseshoe shaped pillows that we would put on either side of us and feed the babies by bottle.  We still feed them that way to this day.  Joe was able to feed them at night by himself and I was able to do it during the day by myself.  Those pillows worked like a charm.  I didn't have any help from week 2 on, so needless to say, I was a bit frantic at first.  But, I slowly got in the swing of things, and now feel pretty capable.

 The family.  Twins at week 2.

Dallin had a birthday on March 5th, but we had his party March 3rd.  It was fun and just what he needed to feel loved and get some much needed attention since the twins came.

 Daddy got him a bike for his birthday and Dallin loved it!

Twins week 4.

Twins week 5

Twins week 6

I don't know what I was thinking, I guess I was out of my mind at this point, but I decided to potty train Dallin at 6 weeks post partum. I must really have been out of mind, I mean who does that?  But I stuck through it all and Dallin was potty trained in a week.  He still has a poop accident every once in a while, but he is pretty good now.  He even potty trained to not wet the bed by day 5.  I was so and still am so proud of him.  He is such a smart and awesome kid.

 Twins at 2 months.  Blake was rolling over  from front to back and Matthew was smiling like crazy.  Blake was slow to smile, but Matthew though, was all smiles by week 7.  He loved to smile and coo.  They were both sleeping through the night.  At week 9 they were sleeping from 10pm til 6:30am.  It was amazing.  Babywise is the answer to all my worries.  It works like a charm.  Well rested babies, make for well fed and happy babies.  I love the full night sleep I get and it sure helps get me through my hectic days with two babies and a toddler.

 Dallin loves his brothers. He says they are his babies, and his very protective of them.  For a 3 year old, Dallin is really smart and super intuitive. Sometimes he can calm them down better than I can.

Twins at 11 weeks.

I love the way that Dallin is starting to interact with them.  They are so much fun now and we both just love to play with them.  Matthew has been smiling for weeks now and Blake is just starting to at this point.  Blake started smiling around 12 weeks.  Matthew smiles so big, I think his face might crack.  I love it.  They both giggle and coo at my silly faces and sounds.  It just melts my heart.  Dallin was so funny this day I took their 11 week pictures.  He kept saying, " Mommy, my brothers want to take pictures with me, watch this."  He then would move them into position and have me take their picture.  He then wanted to be in the pictures too.  He moved around them,  setting himself either between them or beside them. I have to say, my joy was pretty full this day.  It was so heart warming to see him love them so much and to watch as their eyes followed him wherever he went.  It is my hope they he will always be a good example to them, and that they will look to him in every good thing as they do now.